It’s good that I’ve made progress. I have my friend back. We’ll sort of. He’s being so cold. The cold shoulder literally makes my heart hurt almost worse than being ignored. I’m confused and I feel like everything he’s doing is with a slight vengeance against me. He is using his words to make me feel weak and sad. It’s working.
Im also mad. Mad that I did this to myself. Mad that too many other people are involved. Mad that I have to sit here and take the verbal abuse. As minor as it is I hate just brushing it off. It hurts.
it hurts that he is so distant. It hurts that other’s opinions are carrying so much weight. It hurts that he won’t forgive me. It hurts that he’s going to forget about me.
He’s going to move on. And he’s going to forget about me. That sucks.